WHY? | byPastor Newton Fairweather
Time out. A difficult conversation with God.
Time out was not a place I wanted to be when I was growing up. Whenever my mother sent me to time out (my room) it usually meant “I will deal with you later.”
She need to settle down before she dealt with me. In that moment of uncertainty, so many things went through my mind. As I reflect back on those days, I remember how valuable it was and how much it taught me about life. How valuable grace is. How I did not get what I truly deserve. In this season we find our self in, does it not feel sometimes that we have been sent to our room? That God, our father/mother, is going to come through the door. We are powerless and it is in His hand on what will happen to us. The only thing we can do is to wait, and who likes to wait? We are at His mercy and His grace.
Recently, I could not sleep. It was around 4am. I am usually an early riser, but on this morning I had awaken a little earlier than normal. My morning routine consists of getting up, do my devotion and then go running. I had always enjoyed the morning and especially having a monologue with God, by this I mean I would do most of the talking. On this particular morning, the conversation took an unusual turn. I felt somewhat unhinged. Don’t know why, I just felt uneasy. I tried to explain it away by thinking I had gotten up too early, and I attempted to go back to sleep. That did not work, all I could do was remain awake in silence. It took me back to my days when my mother had put me in time-out (my room) and I was waiting for her to address me.
As I laid there my thought began to be filled with nothing but questions:
Why can’t I go back to sleep?
Why is there so much unrest?
Why is so much greed?
Why is there a pandemic?
Why such misunderstanding?
Why, why, why, why, why?
Strange as it may seem I had no fear, unlike when I was waiting for my mother to enter my room like the “Terminator” when I was a child. There was a certain calm to the moment that I had not experience before. This time out was different. There was a certain peace. In every way that I had could imagine, it seems like I was coming up with a verse in the Bible. Verses that I had learned as a child from my mom and dad. In that moment of silence, it reaffirms what some of my core belief was; everything I needed to know I was given the answer in advance. There was nothing new under the sun. God still had all power in His hand.
I write all this to say, every question you have on your mind, God has already answered it. You might not hear his voice, but what you have is His Word. “Heaven and earth will pass away but my Word will not."
Some Questions that Jesus ask.
Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? (Matthew 6:27)
Why do you worry about clothes? (Matthew 6:28)
Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? (Matthew 7:3)
Do people pick grapes from thorn bushes, or figs from thistles? (Matthew 7:16)
Why are you so afraid? (Matthew 8:26)
Why do you entertain evil thoughts in your hearts? (Matthew 9:4)